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Jason Teo (NSF) 3rd May 1990 .
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Sunday, December 4, 2011, 1:23 PM
Last goodbye with a kiss
Hi Baby!I just want to say thank you for those wonderful days we had!3weeks of laughter and sadness. The moments i had with you will always be in my heart yea.I wana tell you that im sorry for not being the perfect boyf you ever wish for. The perfect guy to ever understand what you going through. The perfect guy who doesnt mind you mixing round with other guys.
Im sorry for putting you through lots of difficulties during the r/s. But when i look back i think back about the times we had. Like first time i called you and we had lots of crap to talk about. the days i told you my mum and dad kept shooting me like a machine gun. the times when you actually cried and say you didnt want me to leave you and just wish to get married instantly.The times when we started thinking our children should have what names.haha. Those were the days that i truly will miss.
I wouldnt say you didnt give me hell most of the time but as time passes by i realise im getting used to it.i mean its still hell but yeah i try to understand why your giving me hell for. Having you around is like a drug that i need.its a daily thing for me cause your an addiction.
When i say i love you i do mean it.I just wanted to be there seeing you happy and sad. through good times and bad. i know no matter what happens im still there to protect you when im around.
Baby you brought me to a whole new level.A world with a whole new meaning to it. Im sorry for putting you through the toughest spot when you say you do not know whether you have feelings for me. All i can say is i wanted you so badly cause i realise comparing with my ex's your someone which words can describe and feelings just happen to be there. i just wish to marry you so badly, having a family with you, living in our own world where its just you and me.
Im gonna tell everybody I see just how much you mean to me,
tell it to the people who don't want to hear,
tell it every night and every day of the year,
tell it to my friends who doesnt know.
Watch you smile while your sleeping,
I could spend my life with you in this sweet surrender.
For everything you done, Thank you for being there for me through good and bad times
I love you
S's 051111<3
Monday, September 27, 2010, 5:42 PM
When your in primary school, teacher always ask what do we wana do when we become an adult? Some would say i wana be a policeman while others would wana be a doctor, nurse?So that made us dream big. A dream that can never come true. oh well. thats for me i guess? okay moving on.Sorry folks for not updating blog. Busy recouping from an injury.i'll be out of soccer for the next 4 to 5 months time.cause i broke my ankle joint.wont be recovering that fast. Anyway also i visited both my grandmother and friend wake. Yes both of them passed away last week.Many of my relatives and parent friends came. they saw me wearing a cast. so all of them basically asked what happend and i have to fill in the whole story to them. All of them were nice to tell me to take care of myself. Kinda like Center attraction for the whole thing.
So yea moving on i thought of going to thailand again but its with my buddies lionel william and weixian.so ya. lionel will see through it hoping everything would be fine. So im on 12 days mc and it will probly be the last day of my mc tmr.i might decide to extend my mc. A simple way to avoid the bitch in my camp.prevent conflicts for now. urgh totally nuisance. Bitch also didnt attend nimalan's wake. No guts. you dun have the courage to face your own man death.dun even respect by least paying a visit.hq and everyone came where were you? be glad i ignored you when i was in camp. if i had to start a fight with you oh boy i will.
will update more when i have the time kay
Saturday, September 11, 2010, 6:19 PM
hey!back to blog again. well yesterday went to Rebel. Didnt really go to Zirca because the music wasnt that awesome compared to Rebel. So dance more at rebel then zirca. Asked my cousin to join me but she was at supperclub. okay so shes giving it a miss.but hey i be meeting her next week at rebel since its her first time. Shes bringing her friends while im bringing mine too. Well came back home this morning bout 5 plus send sean and kenneth back home. SO kinda shag too. woke up around 2plus in the afternoon then headed to swimming pool there to suntan too.The sun was awesome!v nice so stayed about 2 hours before coming up.but still gonna go for more suntanning and gymming. next week club. cant wait(: well shall blog again maybe later or next time(: see you people!
Sunday, August 29, 2010, 12:47 AM
had a great day today.well last friday dad book the hotel at marina sands. and i stayed alone.kinda nice and fun. And on sunday i have to book in camp early due to duty.anyway parents are going to europe soon. swiss,france,italy and last but not least london. follow on to china!hahaha but tmr they be going to cruise first.so yeahand i be in camp
how sucky can that be.well nothing much to say today.played pool with my dad.lost to him 6 rounds like wth.not a single round win.oh well. went to pub after that hear live band play.Anyway hope i ord soon so i can explore the world(: gotta go now kinda tired.no mood too.goodnight(:
Saturday, August 21, 2010, 11:35 PM
Yawn. what a day today.tmr having duty.gosh no proper rest at all.But what to do.SAF what. okay well lets talk about today. had a talk with cheryl about her o lvls and which jc shes planning to go.Shes planning to go NJC which i told her not to as i have a buddy who regretted picking njc due to lousy teachers. not all good jcs definitely have good teachers.lousy schools do have good teachers too as the teachers know that these students need their help.okay moving on.well spend time with my parents.talking bout what im planning to do with my life.like planning to do part time work in the states and study abroad.now home alone facing the laptop and watching tv too. i realise Singapore is really missing out good shows. my favourite shows! Like Jersey shore. Silent library, 16 and pregnant, hard time of RJ berger, warren the ape and my favourite show PARENTAL CONTROL(: man. love that show. well gonna go watch now so yeah will be blogging tomorrow. see you and goodnight
Friday, August 20, 2010, 11:11 PM
Im back from camp.Booked out not long ago. Well yesterday had much fun watching sir and mdm arguing. i was pretty much on sir side rather on mdm. Shes not the kind who is able to talk reason with. Shes dun really give a shit about what you say unless your doing it her way. Yet alone i have been tortured by her since the day i ever step foot to the brigade. And now i gonna say everything out now.Mdm- Your a bitch. you think your that big in the brigade that everyone have to do it your way?Face it, there are alot of people who do not like you. You just enjoy stepping over my head dun you? keep it going mdm i dare you to. You step over my head before and i freaking scolded you hardcore manner and what did you do?suck up to me somemore. And then what happen?the guys come back from their training and you suddenly turn back to your oldself and fuck me up again.Yesterday your lucky the argument between you and qm. He didnt want to raise his voice cuz he still respect you.Well just a lil bit more and you will probly be dead if you think his that easily taken down.Change your attitude and i might consider just consider respecting you again.
Sidney- shes a bitch and your a bastard. dude seriously fuck you. you think your that rich like one big fuck like this?telling to tran saying you freaking take 10k cash and slap his face?your a douchebag. and please i didnt even fucking purposely light the paint on fire. wake up la. at that point of time there wasnt any thinner around therefore i dip it into the paint and the light it as it helps to take out the paint.From what i see you assume i was freaking bored and light the paint on fire purposely huh?Please la dun everything go behind and complain to MDM.i didn no wrong and please try doing 3 straight days of 24 hour duties. having only like what 2 hours of sleep every now and then?im pissed and tired yet you still wana do such thing. Today you ask bay help you do stuff in a fuck up attitude. He haven eat his dinner you go and ask him do your shit stuff.Just one more time.you see what will happen. i will freakin make your day a nightmare .if i have to get charge so be it.
Finally to Mx.
your looking for stead doesnt have anything to do with me. you ask them for their opinion then why even bother asking me?i tell you in your face your not ready for one. why wont you even listen?if your not gonna listen dun even bother asking me.you wana break guys heart go ahead just because you got into many relationship which didnt really work out.Your just a flirt nothing much but a flirt. Your mum was right you shouldnt even get to one. Over pampering you will sure spoil you more. Yet alone saying you will go back school as promise to study hard. Next thing you know. aiya lazy to go back to school.so you skip school. its not your 1st time skipping school. If you wana skip so much i rather you quit school.dun even bother going to school.no wonder my friends didnt like you. talked like one ah lian. Yet alone dun appreciate stuff around you.taking things for granted. No wonder everyone look down on you la. You blame the express students for looking down on Na and Nt. its because ppl like you spoil the market. seriously wake up.face reality. your just gonna suffer. right now i believe. Being your friend was a wrong idea.
thats all. im not the kind who loves to complain but seeing this kind of people really annoys me.irritate me to the extend that i have to lecture. I wont do this kind of stuff until my patience runs out.I have no problem with people just only you 3. Urgh.Stupid Fellas!
Tuesday, August 17, 2010, 8:09 PM
June 17, 1999(part 1)My name is Mina Nam. Im 19 still very young. but i am dying. Not right now but my life is slowly fading away as im writing my story. At this moment Im sitting at 'our' spot. Mine and Eun Ji Won, the love of my life.
The sun is slowly beginning to set over the lake.I took a glance at my reflection in the water. My outside looks have changed drastically within the past few months, but the water reflected the true me. Inside im still the same person.
I have done and given so much for love but never once, have I received it back from Ji Won. There are times that I wanted to tell him everything that i have done for him and make him love me back. But i cant.
Love is not selfish.
So I did what felt right. I keep giving Ji Won my love and i never asked for his love in return. Even though i'll leave this world soon, my love for him will still remain. My story begins when i first met Ji Won six years ago on this one fateful day.It all started out...
October 31, 1993 (part 2)
''You better come back here you good for nothing brat!''
I covered my ears with my palms. That was my stepmother calling me. Her voice sounds murderous and i didnt want to face her today. She had slapped and hit me too much already. Im afraid I cant take it anymore so i hid in my closet.
I peeked through the crack in my closet and saw my stepmom with a really pissed off look on her face. She was holding that stick that imalways afraid of. I winced thinking about how much it would hurt if she hits me with it again.
Im just thirteen and whoever said 13 was an unlucky number, they were right. My mom had died when i was turning ten.Before she died she told me that i was the most beautiful girl in the world and how proud she was to be my mother. She said even though she'll be gone, her love remains with me always.
Tears rolled down my cheeks. 'If you love me mommy, how can you be so selfish to leave me?' So now when i had turn 13 my dad had married Mok Young A, who is my stepmom today. She was a cold-hearted woman who tortured me all day. Any self-esteem i had for myself was shattered and i was living a nightmare.
My closet door suddenly opened.
"There you are you wicked girl!"
My stepmom started cursing at me as she pulled me out and threw me onto the floor. I began to tremble because i knew what was going to happen next.
*WHACK WHACK WHACK.*
I cried out in pain but i knew that no one is going to hear my cries. I desperately began to gasp for air. My heart was aching again. I couldnt breathe.
"Not again!Don;t you see how much your costing your father and me with your heart problems? If it wasnt for all these medical bills we wouldnt be so poor now!"
I had this heart condition where air would suddenly shut off and i couldnt breathe. The doctors are trying to save me by giving me a respirator and pills, but they're not sure how much longer i'll be able to live. My dad ( who was a pathetic excuse for a man) came in.
He looked down at me with sorrowful eyes. He held my stepmom's arm lightly and said, "I think she had enough. You don't want her to have another attack. Calim down and let's have dinner."
"Thats why im hitting her!" she yelled. "She got detention and stayed after school for an hour. She was supposed to be home to go buy food for dinner and make it. Your daughter is so evil. She wants me to starve or something!"
"I didnt get detention. The teacher wanted to talk to me about--"
But i was cut off by the whack of my stepmom's stick. I cried silently in pain and turned away. I didnt want to look at her.
My dad said, "Well dinner's just going to be a little late today. Mina say sorry to your mom."
Despite the pain, I managed to say, "Sorry mom. Please forgive me."
My dad handed me some money. "Here. Go buy food to make mee-yuk-gook tonight." My stepmom's temper simmered down a little as my dad lead her out of my room.
I picked up the money and headed for the store. Mr Choi the owner of Choi Food Market,shook his head as i walked in. He knew what kind of hell i was going through. I finished my shopping and checked out.
"that'll be $3.49."
"What?" I asked. "umm..Mr. Choi. That's impossible. With all this stuff it should be around $15"
"I know Mina." Mr Choi gave me a sad smile. "The exact price is $14.32. Why don't you keep the change for yourself?"
I opened my mouth in shock. "Mr Choi...I..I cant do that," I said as i handed him 20.
He only took 5. "No. Keep it. I know that stepmom of yours dont give you any money."
I looked up at Mr.Choi with tears in my eyes. Here he was, just a friend reaching out to me. I said thanks and headed for home.